I have this terrible habit of announcing my attempts.
For me (i.e. someone who thrives off attention), telling anyone who will listen about my grand plans to accomplish XYZ is a way to hold myself accountable. To make ideas real. To understand that, if I don’t see this plan through, I have others watching me/in the know.
The irony is that, if I’ve announced 20 grand plans my entire life, I’ve actually completed maybe 5 of them?
I, like most people, don’t like doing things I’m not good at that but I realize you can’t really ever “get good” at something if you don’t do that thing, so it’s really a double-edged sword. A catch 22, if you will. And as much as I hate “failing” at things, I hate more the privacy behind the failing. I hate putting up a front, acting like I’ve either accomplished the thing when I absolutely haven’t or failing and pretending it never happened.